Thursday, January 1, 2009

YEAR 2008

Year 2008, I better remember it as YEAR 2008. The year which gave me hopes, year which fascinated me so much that I took the risk of a life time, year which told me to follow my dreams, year which gave me that courage to live a life of a legend, year which taught me life is not a cake walk, year which taught me what I can do & what I can't, year which said in an audacious manner "LIFE IS NOT FOR LAZY", year which taught "you get it only when you deserve it".

I came to 2008 in a hope that I can change this world, and change the mindset of the people who think safety first. Look where I am, I tend to believe as most of us do, that I am in the same position as I were a year ago. Many prescribed that, I after earning 8 to 10 lacs for my family in two years, shouldn't have quit my job for something less worthy. But I could not resist the temptation of 2008.

Yesterday my cousin asked me "Was it worth quitting your job ?". I answered "YES".
I had reasons to quit my job. First I was frustrated about myself, I did not have sufficient time to look after my self (mentally). Second, The job was first class, but was I enjoying it ? Third, I had my own plans for the future, which obviously did not match with the profession I was in. Fourth, Money was not the only criterion for me(I was intelligent enough not to get into huge commitments). Fifth, I love being myself.

Year 2008, taught me BEING MYSELF.

JANUARY(2008): It is the time when I was preparing for my FMS as I am doing now. I just had one thing in mind. I could be able to succeed in at least one colleges. only this kept me going.

February(2008): Most of the results were out, and I had failed pathetically. My parents were at ease as they knew this was bound to happen.

March (2008) : After the debacle as every individual does. I began soul searching, but I failed. I couldn't find any reason for my failure.

April&May(2008) : I seriously don't remember how this time went. But I can tell you this was the time when I started to feel I can't make it. I am a failure, I am a looser.

June (2008) : I started to take pain. I started to understand my self better. I was starting to let go my ego and think objectively. I took constructive jobs, took interest in technologies, current affairs, economics, browsing, knowledge sharing, Proactive communication and much more.

July (2008) : I was under immense pressure, not by my parents, not by my friends, not by the society, but by myself and my self belief. I knew I did not have the potential to meet the best. But I had improved a lot and not among one how were sitting behind and watching people run over them. I was actually running along (even though in a slow pace).

August(2008) : The reformations in the last two months had helped me to look at GMAT as an option. I was starting to love what I was doing. I was not a lazy bug sitting and doing something anymore. I had a purpose, I began to feel a new zephyr going in my life which is abating all pain and giving me hope of a brighter future.

September (2008) : I started preparing for GMAT. Most astonishing thing was that I worked harder for GMAT more than I did for CAT. By this time the economy was slowing down, and analyst could feel the recession was coming. I was afraid of the bearings it could have, if I opt for the education overseas.

October (2008) : I had written My GMAT and went into my own shell of self satisfaction (My worst enemy since my birth). I was satisfied to have written GMAT and have scored a marks which was not exceptional but good for a first timer.

November(2008) : CAT went on in a pathetic way, and I lost all hopes which I had garnered for years. ALL HOPES. That is the time when I learn't about my worst enemy "SELF SATISFACTION". I learn't this but did not have sufficient time to rectify it. It was not easy it has been in me since my birth (A habit built over 25 years is hard to break). I know that without breaking this habit (being in my comfort zone after reaching a trivial achievement ), I cannot live, not at least the life I want to live.

December (2008) : I wrote more exams most of them in vain again, except for TISS which went on exceptionally well(God saved me here).

Now when I look back at 2008, I could feel this year is the year which will be termed as the year of LEARNING. The year which taught me life lessons. Without this year, I wouldn't have become the naveen I am now. Without this year I wouldn't have understood myself.

I don't know If I will be able to succeed eventually or not but when some one asks me was the risk justified ?, Was the year 2008 fruitful? I answer YES , Because without this year, I wouldn't have loved myself. I wouldn't have been myself.

My new year resolution: "is to Arise! Awake! and stop not till the goal is reached."

Wats your's ?


sowmya said...

Hi Naveen,

Din't know u r good at writing your experience.But that was a great piece of work u've done.n thanks for sharing your experience.Good luck for achieving the New Horizon you desire to.

Your article reflects one lesson for everyone: Take out time to spend with oneself and learn what one wants to do.

That was a great one and I enjoyed reading it.


Raju said...

Hmmmm not bad.. not bad at all dude.
You have got many things in past year,
but in our perception (even me!) in the year you were taking big risk for "Not to fail" i hope..

But after this recession comes in picture i have gotta vote for your decision, u r in right path.. go ahead..

About me!!

You know that dude, i dont want to broad cast my bad year!! but for this year i have got lot many in my "To do list"

Enjoy the life..

ramya said...

Never thought of such matured thoughts from thee...Good one... Felt somehow good n also encouraged after reading this one... Thank you for that.. All the best for year 2009!

sowmya said...

naveen its really good..u ve written it very d a grt year...may ur efforts always meet with success..

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